Kevin McGee - Selfish (Video)

Kevin did promise us at the top of the year that, following the release of his magnum opus “Comeback Kev”, he would be releasing a slew of music to follow up & he wasted no time in fulfilling said promise. With a powerful record that could’ve easily been a leftover from his Heartbreak Pack series, Kevin flexes his storytelling abilities to get a little reflective on his “Selfish” behaviors, something we’ve all been guilty of from time to time in our romantic relationships. Couples fight, it’s inevitable & I don’t really care for those couples who say they never fight cause that’s a lie but if it’s true, that’s still unhealthy. Here Kev explores these themes of unhealthy dynamics. Our lives are stressful enough as it is, yet for some reason, we tend to take out our bad days or misfortunes or even minor mishaps on those closest to us. It’s important that we learn to regulate our emotions cause there’s nothing wrong with being angry, that’s a basic human emotion but how we express it is important. Right off rip with the toxic thinking too, really taking me back to the years I spent living in that mindstate. He even says he pushed her away but knows that she’ll always come crawling back but something’s gotta give at some point.

That tug of war we have within ourselves can be so detrimental. Trying to decide whether or not to just bite our tongue or be honest with the one we love, either way it’s gonna hurt so hopefully we choose to just be honest & transparent with our partners but I think a lot of us, myself included, fear intimacy or maybe we’ve just been craving it for so long that, when we do finally get it, we don’t know what to do with it so we panic & it’s sad because we know our women want to love & help us in any way they can, yet all we seem to do is break them down continuously then wonder why they choose to take their power back, rendering us powerless. All that always having to get the last word shit or not letting shit go, dredging up the past, blame shifting, gaslighting, all these ugly things we do to one another instead of just being selfless with one another. For some people, it’s easier for them to just cheat cause I think they subconsciously want the person to leave but don’t wanna be the one to break up with them. It’s sad when we can’t just be adults when it comes to our love lives but we’re learning more & more everyday.

That guilt too is something I’ve had to live with personally, putting it all on someone you claim to love & care for then bailing on them & leaving them to fend for themselves. Reestablishing that trust once it’s gone is a hard feat & even once we do, somehow we fuck it up & I truly believe it’s because we don’t trust ourselves enough. If we’re not honest with ourselves then how can we be them? Uplifting a gender but then our triggers get pulled & there goes our masks, whisking away in the wind again as we desperately try to catch it. Towards the midway point of the record though, Kevin is aware of his ways & seems willing to change, if not to save this relationship then for himself so he can be better prepared for the next. The visuals as well really drive these sentiments home, they hit home hard enough to at the very least, crack your glass heart.