Joslyn Daniel - Ruminating Thoughts (EP)

Tell me about it, Joslyn; what enters the mind, especially after traumatic experiences? Love tends to be great at bringing about things of the sort, it can be plenty intrusive & all we're left with is "Ruminating Thoughts," festering greatly on the mental & us. We're left wondering just where the hell it all went off the rails; like her, I'm sure a lot of us may have thought that love we once felt with someone wasn't capable of being shattered, but our hearts are made of glass. Unfortunately, some people know that & love to keep tapping on it until the cracks begin to form, then play pretend like it was accidental, mainly cause they assume you'll never leave; then when something finally gives. They want to bring in that victim mentality they love to be in cause it satiates their own craving for attention; she ain't having it.

In the opener "Into The Void," she grapples with the fact that all of her efforts have left her with nothing. In the end, she was only a pawn in this game he's playing, perfectly encapsulating the feeling of emptiness this conjures. You begin to start "Questioning" what you did wrong but who is she to complain? It's all just lessons that needed to be learned, sure she clearly still loves him, but what he did was unforgivable & the relationship is now ruined beyond repair, "Never Again" will she bend over backward till she snaps. He can keep snooping in on her, fuming whenever he sees her doing just fine without him. She hopes it eats him up cause all he has to blame is himself; at least she was always honest with him; he couldn't even be that with himself.

Now that she's on her own, she can focus on herself, choosing to take this time to ponder on a past love that never fully blossomed into what it could've been on "Venus-Mars." The youthful innocence of this record is so bittersweet; who knows what could've come of that lost love had she not wasted her time with what's his face. Maybe there's still a chance now that she's free to mingle; the possibilities are now limitless. Still, for now, I'm not sure she's ready to potentially repeat the same mistake. She just needs her "Space" to build herself back up as I'm sure this person needs his; a breakup is hard to bounce back from in life. Still, it's "Up To You" to decide when you're ready; hopefully, he makes the right decision & doesn't leave her mind wandering for too long.