Lil Horror - Maybeifididititwillhappen (Single)
Lil Horror is stepping into the alternative world with this one; nice dark power-pop-punk is what I hear here, packed with that same teenage angst you've seen in all those coming of age films. You can really feel the naivety in her voice as she pushes & pulls, not only the person she clearly loves but herself. It's like a tug of war going on in her head; it just feels like you want to be screaming at your depression or whatever mental issues you're close to succumbing to in life.
It's great when a certain someone always knows what to say, is always there at all your lows as well as your highs, but you still find yourself pushing them away. It's not them, it's really you but you have yet to come to grips with it & admit to yourself that you're not dealing with whatever trauma you may be carrying & projecting onto other people. Sometimes you probably just need to hear yourself say these feelings out loud to find how silly it is, but it's your raw emotions. Never feel bad for feeling how you feel; anxieties are at an all-time high as of late, for a while now actually, so songs like this are perfect cause between you & me, I'm going crazy trapped in my room. This ballad is the perfect song for me to argue with my walls to like I'm rehearsing what I would like to tell my significant other but inevitably can't bring myself to do.
She's honest as can be with herself, but this other person is no doubt hearing her cry out all her fears & doubts. Her needs &, of course, they're always going to be there cause the connection is real, at least when you're young. You really feel that attachment & it makes it harder to let go if you have to for the betterment of yourself, she doesn't want to lose this person, but as she grows older, it gets harder not to feel that worry that she just might fully run from her problems. Let's hope not cause I would love to hear more of this raw emotion; it's clear that she's drawing inspiration from real experiences & emotions. If the result is this great, then I'm a happy camper, locked in a dark & mental prison, waiting for more content.